Terms of Endearment...

Things I miss hearing.... When Trevor and I first started dating and up through the honeymoon stages of marriage he called me goose and I called him moose. Goose came from silly goose and I am not quite sure where the moose came, probably just because it rhymed with goose. Cheesy I know but we were young and lets just face it.... Corny. Through out the years I would hear goose every now and again and it always brought a smile to my face. Then after Garrett was born I stopped working and watched a lot of Regis and Kelly in the morning as I laid on the couch with my newest little man and one day, I cannot remember for the life of me which actress was on, but they were talking about having their little person climb in bed with them and cuddling and calling them their little lover. I for some reason thought that was the strangest thing to call your child and told Trev about it and we jokingly started calling Garrett our little lover and eventually each other and it kind of just stuck through the years. I have heard a lot of babe and lady. And most common through the last few years my name has been "Vern" which stemmed from lover to lovern to Vern. I could not even begin to explain how badly I would love to hear Trevor call for Vern. I also would love to hear him say, "I love you big." which then I would tell him I love him back and he would ask, "How Big??" I would tell how big and he would say, "I love you this big".... with his huge arms spread as wide as they would go with a big grin on his face. Trevor is the sweetest boy I know. He was never shy about telling me how much he loved me and how beautiful he thought I was multiple times every single day of our life together and bringing me home flowers. I would often find little love notes randomly through out the house in places he knew I would get into often. He would also leave me love notes on the shower door or bathroom window so as I was showering and the doors and windows fogged up I could see his notes. I wish I could just squeeze Trevor tight and let him know how much I love him and miss him. I am reminded often of what a wonderful husband and father he was and still is. I love. Love. Love him.